Ruby Rose Details Amnesia, Suicide Attempt and PTSD in Candid Instagram Post
Ruby Rose celebrated World Mental Health Day by writing an extremely personal essay that detailed her struggles and experiences with mental illness.
Rose shared that she was first diagnosed with depression at thirteen and shortly later had been diagnosed with major depressive disorder.
By the time she turned eighteen, Rose discovered that she had dissociative amnesia. "I had a few years entirely erased from my memory and a chance run-in with my best friend from primary school was the first I learned about it," she wrote in the Instagram post. The actress recalled that she didn't even remember her friend and didn't remember any of the memories she shared with Rose.
It was when Rose asked her mother a series of questions after the chance encounter with her friend, that she learned the truth. "I found out I went from a smiling laughing child to a quiet mute who sat alone and stared off to the distance during recess after one of many traumatic events that I didn’t remember," she wrote. Rose's mother hadn't told her of the diagnosis of dissociative amnesia previously since her doctors believed that she was too young to fully process what happened.
The Orange Is The New Black actress shared that she dealt with a misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder, instead she actually had an overactive thyroid. With multiple misdiagnoses and going on and off medications, it was a dark time for her. "There were hospitalizations, suicide attempts as young as twelve," Rose said. A brain scan would later show that Rose also suffered from complex PTSD.
In the end, Rose has learned just how strong she really is. "You can’t judge those who don’t understand and don’t know how to do that either. It’s that you cannot judge people at all because you can never know what they have been through," she shared.
Rose hopes that sharing her story others would realize that self-love and self-care are the most important things.
Read Rose's heartfelt Instagram post, below!